My walking on Earth sometimes hurts.
My walking on Earth is sometimes wild and full of life.
My walking on Earth is finally starting to have some clearer Taste and Meaning.
For a long time, I wondered why I’ve had, and still have, so many moments of sadness around me,
so much heaviness in our families, so many difficult situations.
And through it all, I – who,
when I’m not writing (trust me on this),
am one of the most smiliest,
joyful, and slightly crazy people on this planet.
But just under the skin,
my high sensitivity begins,
as if I always feel and think way too much.
I wandered my way through many beautiful and wise books.
I had my share of “Ahhs” and “Ohhs”…
until, finally, I began practicing daily mindfulness,
daily meditation and daily prayer.
And in the middle of all that chaos,
my own, my parents, our ancestors,
mixed with my character, my extremes, and my strangeness,
with this weird mix of deep chill and cosmic-level tension,
among all the stories I’ve lived and inherited…
Suddenly, everything began to make sense.
Inside me.
In what my everyday life reflects back to me.
In the way the world speaks to me
… even sometimes through the voice of a small child.
I started learning what it means
to look at myself and my life
from a new perspective,
and with meaningful distance.
To see the emotions that guide me,
but no longer lead me blindly or control me.
To notice the things I truly want and love,
and not just what I’ve always accepted without question.
So much has changed.
In me.
Deep inside.
And suddenly – Eureka!
We can’t seem to find the things
we want so deeply
because we’re not meant to have them.
We’re meant to BECOME them.
We can’t find peace within ourselves,
because first,
we have to be that peace.
Not get it.
Not chase it.
It’s not magic – It’s just practice.
How is it that after all these years on Earth,
I’m only now discovering this Heaven within me?
How is it that we still don’t realize
as a society,
that what’s in Heaven can only come to Earth through us?
As many people, as many paths.
As many ideas, as many ways.
My path has brought me here.
I’ve arrived at a point in my journey
where my inner world – my spirit, growth and sensitivity
can finally live in harmony
with the fullness of daily life.
With sunsets that take my breath away.
With a glass of wine that tastes best when shared.
With calm and certainty
that everything I need – I receive.
Because I live on Earth
and here I also need to pay bills and have a place to live.
A fusion of depth and the material world.
A harmony of logic and emotion.
A balance of the feminine and the masculine.
A bridge between East and West.
We are strongest in our Wholeness.
To me, that’s what Amen truly means.
Let it be so.
What does Guidance mean?
It’s life, giving me signs.
It’s words that only I can hear.
It’s symbols that only I can see and understand.
When I practice meditation and mindfulness,
I begin to see the world differently.
And when I add prayer and intention…
Miracles start to happen.
First within me,
and then in my world.
We all know this truth:
“Change yourself,
and everything around you will follow.”
“Insanity is doing the same thing
over and over again
and expecting different results.”
A wise man named Albert Einstein once told us that
